Pastry School.

I haven’t been posting lately because I’ve been feeling a little blue. I haven’t been able to post the lasagna I made as well because I am just feeling down for the past few days. I was talking to Les earlier and I was telling her about how I was feeling lately. I’m quite impressed that she hasn’t given up on me yet. I tend to shift between elated euphoria and depression most of the time. Somehow she “gets me” like in the lyrics of Michelle Branch’s song,

“You Get Me”

So I’m a little left of center
I’m a little out of tune
Some say I’m paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don’t care what they’re sayin’
As long as I’m your girl

Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you’ll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I’m crazy
But you say it’s okay
You’ve seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes

I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you’ll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
‘Cause you get me

Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah

‘Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you’ll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
‘Cause you get me
Yeah, oh, yeah, oh

If you’ve got a green mind, discard the secret garden/flowers part. >.< So then suddenly the song of Miley Cyrus starts playing and I texted it to her. I mentioned to her a couple of days ago how I woke up to a song in the radio one morning and the song was playing. I really liked it and forgot all about it and only found out about who sang it and the title when I found it on a forum sig.

“The Climb”
I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah)

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

So I was telling her, maybe you know, it’s not just a freaky coincidence. Maybe it might be a little sign from up there telling me to keep going. So I started talking about pastry school again and told her that I really wanted to pursue it. (I forgot to tell her she might be interested to take up some medical assistant training school courses as a refresher if she decides to go back to the medical field…)

I decided to look up again on pastry schools and courses available here in the country. I’ve been checking websites, blogs and forums and so far I’ve gotten interested on is International School for Culinary Arts and Hotel Management (ISCAHM) and their Diploma in Pastry and Bakery Arts and Kitchen Management. I really am interested on their course and curriculum and if its God’s will, I might be able to take the course next year. Right now, I still have 4 subjects left to finish my bachelor’s degree in Taft. By September/October I’ll be graduating and hopefully I get a job immediately.

I would need to start saving up as much as I can so that when 2010 comes, I have the funds to enroll myself in ISCAHM. I’ll be helping my parents with my sibling’s tuition fees so I’m hoping that I can get a good paying job. As much as possible, I don’t want to go back into a call center. I have nothing against them but I’m just not cut out for it. The salary for me does not compensate the stress I experience during my workhours as well as my pre-shift and post-shift meetings. Kudos to those who can withstand it and enjoy their work there. I feel much happier when my hands are busy with kneading doughs and making cakes that people smile about.