Chronicles of Nika

Before we move to another house, we’ll be getting this one fixed in time for the owner’s arrival on August. We’ll most probably get a new paint job for the whole house and some on the roof. Some of the cabinets will be re-made as well because of some termites. >.<

I've been looking online for some of the stuffs needed to fix some of the broken things such as the lights on the gate. I found some outdoor lighting and the wall mounted ones interested me. We’ll most likely get a wall mounted lighting for the gate of this house we’re living in before we move out. For my dream house I’ve gotten interested on hanging lanterns. I’m interested on the Liz Jordan “Valley” item that they have. That would look really nice on my dream porch.

I feel so sorry for myself right now. I’m having stomach cramps and its intolerable. *cries* I’ve been whining and whimpering like a deranged person but I just couldn’t stop. It hurts so much.

Les said I could try taking Buscopan and I did, but it still hurts like hell. :’( I also tried hot compress but it didn’t work. Also tried oil but still nothing. :’( I have an early class tomorrow so I just pray it heals after I wake up tomorrow. The airconditioning on buses in the morning is really chilly so I need to take a jacket with me to cover my stomach. I don’t easily feel crappy with whatever gets thrown at me but the only things that can make my mood sourer than a vinegar are my cluster headaches and stomach cramps. *cries*

I saw one of my blockmates yesterday at school. It seems he’ll be taking masters. I feel a bit sad that I’m still taking undergrad studies but then I remember that I am happy because I am finally getting closer to my goal of graduating. Like what many have said, focus on the positive and build up on that. I should remember that since I also presented about appreciative inquiry last term for my final speech in my speech class.

It made me miss my college friends though. I haven’t seen Andrew, Au and Vicky for a bit of time now. I see Mina a lot since I tend to visit their house when I have free time in school. I like seeing my cute godson. xD Seeing this health insurance leads site made me remember Au even more. She works in a company related to the insurance industry. I haven’t seen Au since last year I think. Way too long already. Maybe our schedules will meet once I graduated. I’d really want to go out of town with them. We need some bonding time and some time off from stresses of real life. xD

I really am sick of the news. Its always those scandals being shown and I just wish they’d stop airing it already. I’ve already stopped watching the news because of it. Even some professors drop some “hints” about them during the first day of class. >.> Its a serious issue and should be dealt as such but not to the point that news become tabloids. I don’t read tabloids, why would I watch one?

On a lighter note, I’ve been trying to create or visualize my dream house. Some say it helps greatly if we visualize what we want so I’ve been doing that and I really think it works. Promise.

That’s one of my dream patio sets. I never really had a large outdoor area in the houses we lived in so when I get my dream house, I want a large outdoor area. I’d love to live near a lake but if that’s not feasible, a pool would be fine. Then a vast garden which will house large old trees and beautiful flowers that bloom at different intervals of the year so that we’ll have blooms all year round. Plus a hammock and a waterfall. I’m still working on the details but jotting them down here makes it easier for me to visualize it more and add new ideas.

I just feel like crying. Why do people who disappear from our lives suddenly show up again when we’ve finally mended our hearts and lives? I’m just tired and my chest hurts so much right now. I just want to know what’s the deal. If its not meant to be just disappear forever and not just show up randomly causing chaos in my quiet and organized world.

I don’t want to start thinking of what might have been. I just want you to disappear for real this time if its really not meant to be.

We eat a lot of cake during May. First, Mother’s Day usually end up in May so we either buy Mom a Red Ribbon cake (We don’t like Goldilocks as much anymore) or I go bake one. Then my sister celebrates her birthday every 17th of May and that means cake time again. This is what I made for her:

Sorry for the crappy picture. I didn’t take that. We’ll its my usual chocolate cake only this time decorated with the sprinkles and marshmallows that I had. Mom forgot to buy candles that’s why we had to improvise with what resources we had.

Then on the 25th, it’ll be Dad’s birthday. This means another cake will be blessing our tables. If we don’t have extra cash for a Red Ribbon cake, I’ll whip up some chiffon base and maybe make a cinnamon icing. Dad loves cinnamon. xD

On the 30th (or is it 31st) the elders from the church will be dropping by for a meeting and it will be done at home. So I will have to bake either a large cake or make 3-4 dozens of cupcakes. xD

I’d need a lot of weight loss pills to lose all these sweet pounds. I can’t stop baking though. I’d rather be big and bake than be thin and give up what I love. <3

Two mice actually. One is my computer mouse and another one is a real mouse/rat that has been pestering the dogs at the back. >.<

My computer's mouse has been acting really weird lately. It keeps clicking so fast that windows, browsers and applications gets closed even if I don't intend them to. Selecting items to drag or simply check is extremely hard to do because it un-clicks it. I have to find a rhythm to get it to work thus making it harder for me to contest my ponies in PI. I was telling Les about it earlier and I figured it would be a good excuse to go to Lipa once she goes back home. So hopefully I can get a new one by Wednesday. I was telling Les about a post about mesothelioma and she goes, "What's that?" I was thinking she'd have an idea because she's a nurse but it turns out she didn't. I gave her this mesothelioma page to read and she said, “I didn’t know that. thanks for telling me. I only knew about squamous cells.” Its my turn to search Google about it now.

I’ve been craving for strawberry since last week. Since I don’t have access to real strawberries right now, I figured I can get my strawberry craving satiated by a cake. Armed with only a strawberry extract, I made one and the whole house smelled so strawberry sweet. xD Here’s a small peek:

Zebra style Strawberry Vanilla Cake

Ugh, I can’t upload the other pictures. My WP is being antsy. >.< :D I used the flour frosting here. I think the first one I made using her previous recipe tasted better or maybe I just did something wrong with my frosting this time. It tasted good also like strawberries but its looks like a weird curdled butter mess. Maybe I needed to beat it more but my hand mixer was getting hot already. xD

I haven’t been posting lately because I’ve been feeling a little blue. I haven’t been able to post the lasagna I made as well because I am just feeling down for the past few days. I was talking to Les earlier and I was telling her about how I was feeling lately. I’m quite impressed that she hasn’t given up on me yet. I tend to shift between elated euphoria and depression most of the time. Somehow she “gets me” like in the lyrics of Michelle Branch’s song,

“You Get Me”

So I’m a little left of center
I’m a little out of tune
Some say I’m paranormal
So I just bend their spoon
Who wants to be ordinary
In a crazy, mixed-up world
I don’t care what they’re sayin’
As long as I’m your girl

Hey, you are on my side
And they, they just roll their eyes

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you’ll find
And still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
Yeah, you get me

So what if I see the sunshine
In the pouring rain
Some people think I’m crazy
But you say it’s okay
You’ve seen my secret garden
Where all of my flowers grow
In my imagination
Anything goes

I, I am all you want
They, they just read me wrong

You get me
When nobody understands
You come and hold my hand, baby
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you’ll find
Still you want me all the time
Yeah, you do
‘Cause you get me

Hey, you are on my side
They, they just roll their eyes
Yeah, yeah, yeah

‘Cause you get me
When nobody understands
You come and take the chance, baby
You get me
When none of the pieces fit
You make sense of it
You get me
You look inside my wild mind
Never knowing what you’ll find
And still I want you all the time
Yeah, I do
‘Cause you get me
Yeah, oh, yeah, oh

If you’ve got a green mind, discard the secret garden/flowers part. >.< So then suddenly the song of Miley Cyrus starts playing and I texted it to her. I mentioned to her a couple of days ago how I woke up to a song in the radio one morning and the song was playing. I really liked it and forgot all about it and only found out about who sang it and the title when I found it on a forum sig.

“The Climb”
I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah)

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

So I was telling her, maybe you know, it’s not just a freaky coincidence. Maybe it might be a little sign from up there telling me to keep going. So I started talking about pastry school again and told her that I really wanted to pursue it. (I forgot to tell her she might be interested to take up some medical assistant training school courses as a refresher if she decides to go back to the medical field…)

I decided to look up again on pastry schools and courses available here in the country. I’ve been checking websites, blogs and forums and so far I’ve gotten interested on is International School for Culinary Arts and Hotel Management (ISCAHM) and their Diploma in Pastry and Bakery Arts and Kitchen Management. I really am interested on their course and curriculum and if its God’s will, I might be able to take the course next year. Right now, I still have 4 subjects left to finish my bachelor’s degree in Taft. By September/October I’ll be graduating and hopefully I get a job immediately.

I would need to start saving up as much as I can so that when 2010 comes, I have the funds to enroll myself in ISCAHM. I’ll be helping my parents with my sibling’s tuition fees so I’m hoping that I can get a good paying job. As much as possible, I don’t want to go back into a call center. I have nothing against them but I’m just not cut out for it. The salary for me does not compensate the stress I experience during my workhours as well as my pre-shift and post-shift meetings. Kudos to those who can withstand it and enjoy their work there. I feel much happier when my hands are busy with kneading doughs and making cakes that people smile about.

Happy Mother’s Day to all the mom’s out there in the world!

I was originally planning to cook lasagna for Mom today but we ended having lunch at home with a KFC bucket meal. We moved it for dinner but the masseuse arrived late afternoon so I wasn’t able to cook it again. Good thing Ate Nita was around so she made chicken sopas and our sister Jed made some fried chicken wings for dinner. The ingredients for the chocolate cake and lasagna have already been purchased earlier so I will be making it tomorrow instead. Sort of a post-Mother’s Day celebration. I didn’t think it was suitable to go get an affordable leather lingerie as a gift to Mom. Just thinking of it freaks me out. Hahaha.